Families

The mountains in the distance aren't getting any closer
In fact, the harder I try to reach them, the farther away they seem
I wish, just once, I could climb them and feel closer to the rulers;
Talk to them about my past, without shame or condemnation

The little child getting in my way
Constantly making me trip over her irresponsibility
She's too naive to know or care
About the people surrounding her

The carrot, dangling just out of the donkey's reach
Taunting it with its mysteries and unpredictability
The poor animal just wants to figure it out
What this carrot is all about

The families in the universe that need to know
What's going on behind closed doors
Never know, never seem to care
But in reality, some do

One More Day

I see the fear in your
Eyes. I feel the pain
in your beating heart
It gets stronger
every day

Day by day your
life drags on. You're
afraid to be alone
but you're scared of
having friends.

I see the dried blood
I see the scars
I hear your sobs
in the bathroom
stalls.

All I have to do
is read between
the lines. The
signs are
everywhere.

You're about to
break. You're gonna
implode. All it
takes is one
more problem.

Then you'll end
the pain. Leaving
everyone behind.
You'll finally
be free.

But what you
don't expect is
a girl who knows
what you are.
You're different.

It's not very often
you feel someone
cares. Not very
often you're
happy.

But I do care.
And I want
to help. Promise
me you'll live
just one more day.

Broken

I have something I need to say

My heart is about to break

But do you care?

I don't even know why I try

To express my heart, express my mind

I just get hurt more

You always laugh, I always cry

Then you just leave me there to die

That's just like you

That's why I run and why I hate

That's why we are where we are today

Because of YOU

You always used me and it became

A relationship I threw away
I gave up

So now it's over and I wonder why

Why I care and why I still cry

It's not fair

I just can't get over it

Can't get over what we could have been

Help me forget

I need to forget you, but it will help

Once you're out of my heart, out of my head

Broken

Letter to You

I wrote this yesterday when I read through a poem that was written to me last summer. The boy who wrote it probably doesn't remember it, but I do. I keep it with me to remind me of my friend. If you read this, (unnamed guy), thank you. You've saved my life quite a few times.

So I read through your poem
The one that you wrote for me

                                   And it made me cry

I don't know how or even why you care

After all, I'm just a screw-up

                                   Yet you seem to love me

And I know you're a Christian and love everyone

I can't help but wish we could have stayed longer

Maybe then I'd understand it better

I know I messed up

                             Alot

But you still talk to me, you still pray for me

And as much as it scares me,

                             Thank you

I told you last night how love scares me

Makes me retreat inside myself

And the idea, just the thought

                            Of a Christian guy

Only a teenager, not yet seemingly required

To say you love even the one who hates you the most

                            Scares me even more

Even if you say it's unconditional and there are

No mistakes big enough to cause hate

                           I'm going to screw-up

                                                 Major

But thank you anyway

                             It really helps to know

You'll always be there for me

                            Even if I don't want you to be

Thanks, bud.

The Dead of Night

The dead of night, when the monsters come out
Now I know what they were talking about

The howling grips my throat in fear
Please no! Please don't leave me here!

Don't let go of my hand, I'll scream
I don't want to stay in this building, this thing

Scratching my face with its razor-sharp nails
I didn't think this was part of the deal!

The darkness won't relent, refuses to give in
Knowing everything will go its way in the end

Darkness prevails, the light's now dull
Soon to turn to black as well