i told myself id never be scared again
'ill be damned if i fear another face
because ive conquered my demons'
they only come out when i feed them
and goddamnit im feeding them
a fucking feast
of bones and fat and scars and brains
because what good is a mind when ill be gone anyway?
this only ends
with one of us dead
and fortunately for you, im already prone
to finally fucking go home
maybe then ill get peace
maybe i'll get a piece
if only a sliver
of my mind because i cant hold my liquor
and i cant go to prison
even though ill always be your beautiful little prisoner
because you dont need a cell
when you can just help me destroy myself
i miss being happy
i miss being weightless
i miss being breathless
i miss feeling guiltless
i miss feeling beautiful
i miss feeling strong
i miss breathing
i fought tooth and nail
to keep myself intact and i failed
i lit myself on fire
and watched my body burn
and damn that hurt
but when all was over i stood up
brushed it aside
hardened my heart
and became a rock
became an island
because a rock doesn't feel pain
and an island never cries
and i will not cry for your mistakes
you chose to hurt me
you chose to take what i would not give
you made that decision
not me, not the man i made you
you chose to pick up the bottle
you chose that over her
not me, not the man i made you
you make your own damn choices
and i made mine
i chose to stay with you
i chose to protect what you left me with
i chose to protect myself
i chose to move on
i chose to make you pay for what you did
i chose vengeance
but that's what happens when everything is stolen from you
thats who you made me
deal with it.
