Kiss Me Goodbye

There's a fog over my eyes,
As your lips find their way to mine
And everything's perfect for the moment
The smoke extends to my body
Seems to happen alot, he
Is perfect for the moment,
But the moment crashes downward spiral
It's always better for a while
It's perfect in the moment..
But now the second, it's over,
I'm back to being a controller
For some dumb video game
You think it's okay to just
Waltz on my spirit like it's just
A plank on a bridge but it's not just
Something to be taken so lightly, so take away everything
I've worked so hard to be
Guess it's my stupidity that's brought me so low
Or my naivity that's showing you it's okay to be no one
You think I fucked him, okay, we'll see the truth in your reason
Steam escapes from my mouth as I struggle to breathe in
You take my breath away,
Just not in a good way
I did nothing wrong, but yet you yell for so long
You think I'm a shitty lady, say I'm a shady lady
But here I was throwing myself away
For you, I did everything
Defended you, everything
I forgave you, every time
Too scared to write the rhymes
Too terrified to write down the truth
'Cause I'm just so scared of you
But I know you can control me, use her against me
You see, this is killing me, to not write this down
Even though it can piss you off, I gotta write this down
I'm not sure I'm entirely in control
Of myself, you do that quite well,
Controlling my emotions, while unleashing yours
I just wish you could see that you hurt me with words
And I'm afraid of you half the time, when you mean to hurt
Because it kills my whole being, bits at a time,
And I don't know who I'll end up as, but kiss me goodbye.