Dear Mom

Dear Sue:

I'm sorry I disappointed you

I'm sorry I never wanted you to help me

I wish I could take it back, for just a minute

Because I really do love you

I'm just too frightened to admit it

You know I don't like getting close to someone

They can leave lickety-split if they want

I can burn a dozen bridges

Set fire to a million homes,

But I can't stand to hurt you,

Because what did you ever do?

I lash out, not thinking about it at all

But I want you to know I never mean it

I'm not going to show this, since I have tears

In my eyes as I write, but hey, at least I tried

I want you to know, I need to let go of the past

And start over, bury my scars in the grass

I'll try to, but it'll be hard, Mom

I can't guarantee anything, but I can attempt it

Because I miss those days when I was yours

And you never had to share me with myself

I'm sure you miss those days times, too, Mom

I'm going to try and bring them back

It'll be hard, we all know that's true

Just remember, Mom, I love you.

-Brenda Ruth Jacobs

Dear Donna:

I'm sorry you had to watch me grow

From the sidelines, I'd have died

But you've yet to disappoint me, Mom

You're the arms I run into

When I have nowhere else to turn

And I love that about you

I love how you're strong

Even when you wanna be weak

I love that it's okay to be wrong

And I can just be me around you

I love that you make food for Dad

Even though you're not chef material

We sure appreciate the effort, right Dad?

Keep it up, Mom, we love you for it

And Mom, I just want to tell you
That I love everything about you

And at least from the darkness through my life

You were always the light I could count on

And I love that about you.

-Brenna Marie Lockey

Beautiful

I've known you for ages, and we're old friends
But I've never had the guts to be honest, truly honest
With you, you're beautiful
I know you won't admit it, but it's about time you did
Because in my eyes, you're beautiful
And it's not just mine, love, go ask around
There's not one man, woman, who will twist my words around
We all see what you don't, your mirror is broken, love
If what you see isn't god-given grace, then beauty doesn't exist

And no, dear, this isn't going to be short, not that length matters
It's not idiotic of me to say, is it, that you're beautiful?
I'm going to drill it into your head, love, you may as well accept it, love
I never lose a fight, love, because you're beautiful
You have that sort of way about you
It makes people drawn to you, inner beauty is nothing
Unless it shows on the outside
And it does, even though I don't want to see your innards

Your personality is reflected by your laugh
Your history by your eyes
Your pain by your scars
You're beautiful, though
You never say enough about how you feel
But you make a point about how your pain is real
I never doubted you for a second, never will
You'll go places, love, don't forget me here
Remember me, Beautiful

Remember this poem when your mirror is fixed
And you'll finally see the beauty mixed with the lies
That you're not good enough, but you'll see through that shit
Because you're beautiful, love, don't mistake it for mediocre
You're far beyond being below anyone
But first, love, keep in mind,
You're beautiful

Broken Toy

I'm running out of energy to keep up the lies
That I'm just fine, we're all right, I barely scrape by
Knowing you're happy with someone else it
Kills me thinking, I can't help it baby

You're still there, you're always near
I can't even fathom a life without tears
And without you, I'm breaking, shaking the walls
With all the love you left me without you

You left me broken, underneath your bed
A toy you never put away, you
Never saw me turn my face away from your lies
And it's all that I can do
To say that I'm not over you

Do you remember that you said you'd never leave me
The day you left, I watched those videos, you see me
Crying on the couch, wishing I was somewhere else
You hurt me but I miss you baby

You left me broken, underneath your bed
A toy you never put away, you
Never saw me turn my face away from your lies
And it's all that I can do
To say that I'm not over you

Now I sleep on your side, breathing in all the time
We were love at first sight, but I never could fight that
Scent in your hair, the devil look in your eye, I
Don't want a life without you by my side

Little Girl

Little girl, gettin' hurt, can't say what she wants to
On the phone, all alone, trying to hide the tears
As she prays to the gods, if only he could find her

Little one, having fun, she doesn't know the
Different time, same rhyme, same situation
Never changes, always stays the

Same person she loved before
Just a different name walks out her door

And she sits by herself, never trust anyone else
Running from the pain, she's sick of all the facades
She wants it to be over, I just want to hold her
And show her what it means to be loved

Little girl, tired girl, she wants to go sleep
Away from the pain, it's insane, she's so sickened
The lies they tell, she can never tell the difference

Little child, just a child, she doesn't know where to turn
Around, all over town, she's just the headlined story
Her life spelled out in one word, simply the

Same person she loved before
Just a different name walks out her door

And she sits by herself, never trust anyone else
Running from the pain, she's sick of all the facades
She wants it to be over, I just want to hold her
And show her what it means to be loved

Little girl, gettin' hurt, can't say what she wants to
All around, over town, she's the story
She wants it to be over, and I just want to hold her
And show her what it means to be loved

The Game

One drag of you just keeps on bringing me back
I'm so addicted I just can't stay away
I need your hand holding mine, I need it so bad
You've been on my mind since I saw your face

I love the way you never tell me I'm wrong
When I say that we're right for us
And I love that you never say you're done
You never leave, you help us get through this

I'm back again, sufferin' again
Without your nicotine
I've done some shit I ain't proud of
But you're the strongest I've seen

And you're always smilin' so big
It makes me wanna smile just to win your heart
You've got that step in your walk
Sayin' you can even talk the talk
But you aren't playin, you're not out to win
Everyone


I love the way you never tell me I'm wrong
When I say that we're right for us
And I love that you never say you're done
You never leave, you help us get through this

Foolish Whore

woke up ten o’clock last night
didn’t know we were in a fight, no
now i’m layin’ here wondering why
did you have to go
i know im not the prettiest girl
face can’t make you fall to your knees
but i thought we had something special
now i know it was just a dream

because you said youd never hurt me
never leave me,
and you said
you loved me and i gave you everything
like a foolish girl, so naive

as i lay here drowning in my
bed, i can’t see, cant even breathe
ill sit here, look at your picture, and
try not to scream
i always said id never cry
over a guy, stupid of me
to think i was worth you wanting
i thought you wanted, that you loved me

because you said youd never hurt me
never leave me,
and you said
you loved me and i gave you everything
like a foolish girl, so naive

said i was beautiful and
everything i wanted to hear
said i was special to you
everything you’d ever need
you said so

you said youd never hurt me
never leave me,
and you said
you loved me and i gave you everything
like a foolish girl, so naive