I Followed Blindly

They asked me to go to war
And fight the Darkness with just my sword
And though to myself I always swore
To never fight the war over-shores
I followed blindly


My mother said it would end me
And turn me into my own Enemy
But the promises lulled my doubting
Mine eyes were searching across the sea--and so
I followed blindly


Riding the majestic waves in gale
And letting myself drown in hail
Beating the drum with my fist made of shale
Growing cold from the rain, turning me pale--but
I followed blindly

And when the warriors gathered wretchedly
And spake of treason and perfidy
I stood there listening with charity
Hearing their every word with abnormal clarity--and
I followed blindly


When the arrows were notched and the spears were heaved
Against our comrades who went to extremes
To defend their hatred, lust, and greed
And felled the strongest ones to grief--but
I followed blindly


And when the light became red with gore
I swore I had seen what I came for
But when my insides felt so torn
I knew my legend had just been born--and so
I followed blindly


Now I sit here waiting still
For the warriors of long ago
As we’ll renew our ancient deal
They will be flung to the pits of Hell
And I will follow blindly.

Dreams

“Go to hell” you whisper at me
Whispering of your dislike of every dream
That I dream when you fall asleep
As you recall the horrors befallen
As you remember the haunting
Haunting you as you sleep

Hell is such an impossible place
Placing it within a bunch of words
Gives it no meaning
But in my dreams I think of it
As a fury of fire encased in flame

Passionate tongues speak in hate
Hard hearted pharaohs demanding pay
Payment for the stomping of their dream
Like their loves stomped the dreams they used to dream

But I have seen the palm trees sway
And seen the fire catch them in surprise
I have seen your passion catch lovers on fire
And teach them how to burn brighter than sapphire
Burning, burning, burning
Just like Hell

See, when I was a young child
I ached for a fire to bun my shell
I wanted to feel myself melt
Into the arms of a shelter I can’t understand
I ached for a love I knew you could give
Setting fire to the world in which we live
And letting my life burn down
So I can say I caught your fire

I dreamed of the fire you held in your hands
And took the slices of love you gave
Feeding your intensity to me bite by bite
While I’m biting the bit you attached to my mouth
To stop me from stopping you
Burning, burning, burning
I burned brighter than any star in the sky
Flying towards the hell you created
The hell I’m escaping.