The Invisibility Effect: Anger

The video timed out before I could finish showing you the pictures!! Anywho, this is about anger :) ENJOY!

You Need to Leave

Liar, liar, pants on fire
As you choke me, your grip gets tighter
You mock me, thought I was a fighter
So you burn me with my own lighter
I'll through  this, I might or
Might not, doesn't exactly matter to you if I fight or
Not, you got what you came for
And if beauty's a gift, take it back
Because beauty equals men and
Men equals strength and
Strength equals rape and
Rape equals pain
I didn't want this, didn't sign up for this
In fact, I still have scars on my wrist
From when I clenched you pen in my fist
And the tip, it cut me, drew my blood
As it fell into the mud
I'd created with my own tears
Because I've loved you for all these years
And held your hand when you felt fear
Yet you still hold me here
And all I want is to leave you
But I'm honestly too scared to
You hurt me again, so who's to say
You'll be any different than yesterday
I've learned myself that those you change
Are just the same person with a new name
I would rather suffer in silence
Not letting you know how much your violence
Scares me, there's not way you'd understand
Because I can't put this into writing
All I know if I'm sick of fighting
When will the ground rise to me
Instead of me falling on my knees?
When will I eat from the tree
Of deadly poison and be let free?
Freedom's all I want, you see
To look around and find no enemies
So you need to leave
Because you're the one thing haunting me

Tomorrow, Today

I've always been afraid of heights
And like Snow White, poison apple bites
But mostly I'm afraid of falling
As I descend, you wont hear me calling
I'll just keep going faster and faster
And then, when at last I land
I'll sit there crying, alone again
Because you're above me, staring down
Looking at me underwater, watching me drown
And you'll stay there, dry, on dry ground
But you'll leave me there shivering in the water
Broken, like after the man who shot her
Shot my dreams as if you knew
What they were to start with, you
Have no say in what I do
And all I see is only a few
Of your thoughts, muddied up too
Many times, invisible mind
Frankly, I'm sick of saying I don't mind
As if this piece of life I have is mine
When you took everything away from me, every time
Along with every lyric, every rhyme
Every single word, every fine line
Like the one I'm walking on
The one I'm falling from
The one I can't erase
And I just want to stop this race
Want you to turn your face
And see me. Do you see me?
Do you hear me calling your name?
Because I'm just so sick of all these games
I'm so tired of playing
Quit playing me
I'm afraid of memories
Always dread remembering
The past is the past, inside of me
Kept down hidden deep within me
Where, pray tell, is your history?
Kept in a jar, in the dirt?
Hidden along with the faces you've hurt?
Perhaps you may feel no regret
Yet, in fact, some of us cannot forget
Try as we might
We lose our own fight
Though your true self has been brought into the light
Into our sight
But we remain blind
As we lead each other into fires
As we tear ourselves down, only to get higher
And higher, and higher still
But I'm falling again
Wear a mask again
Wear a persona, call it whatever
But I'll wear it forever and ever
Just like the rest of you
Seeing through you
But I can't see
My own enemy
She's falling into her own grave
As my entire being tries to save
Her, us, one and the same
Sacrifice tomorrow instead of today

Done With Brie

As soon as I remember, I want to forget
Hand me the whiskey, so that I can numb it
I want to pretend it
Never happened, though it haunts me
Claw out my eyes, Hayley
So I can't see
This memory
Stuck in my ind
The one thing that was mine
I'm sick of crying
Tearing open my heart to tear him out
Beatrayed me, he raped me
There, I said it
Now can I forget it?
Always denying it, can't be me
Must've been the whore called Brie
You know, she lives inside me
Kinda like she's a part of me
But I want her away, she
Gives me a bad reputation, she
Calls it rape to deal with it, I
Want him back, but he
Dosn't like Brie, he's
Done with me..

It's A Miracle

I'm waiting for you to notice
I drink every day, it's
Not as entertainment, it's
To numb the pain, forget what he did, it's
Been haunting me ever since
That night, I just want you to care
This isn't who I was back there
This new me, I hate her too
Always has a drink in hand, you
Have yet to notice the juice
Mixed with vodka, you
Must be blinder than you used
To be, your eyesight must be failing you
Because Monster's not yellow
And I've never been mellow
Idiot, you can't hear me bellow
My need for help, though I scream
In my head
Out loud I said
"Help me now"
I can't even scream, this silence is so loud
I miss being at home in the cloud
I only came down because I saw your frown
Disappointment evident in your face
Yet you hurt me, forgot my name?
Who am I, love? Who is this?
This girl cowering under blankets like some pathetic bitch
Who can't even be honest for fear of your hits
You're breaking what's already broken
Saying things better left unspoken
As the ground sways
The alcohol blurs my days
Look at me, the girl you made
Burned, no one wants me
No one will believe me
You fucking killed me
And I'm not even dead
After everything you said,
It's a miracle, eh?

I'm Fine.

I have died every second I've been alive
Every minute I breathe, I wish I had died
Every time I wake up, I want to sleep again
And dream of you before the truth shows its face again
I live in the dark because you put me here
You used me, left me, now refuse to hear me speak
Well I'm speaking out to myself, right here, right now
I know well by now I'm not worth your affection
Or anyone's, but hey, at least they aren't paying any attention
At least I can disappear in a different direction
No one notices a shadow girl, slowly dying
Now one hears me in my world, silently crying
I can starve all my lonesome self
I don't even need your help
You broke me, hurt me
Raped me, killed me
But I can't die again, I'm the undead
I am inside the words that you said
I am the memory burning inside your head
And I hate you with each passing breath
But I love you at the same time
And I'll lie on my back and pretend it's all fine
I'll look at Death's eyes and you'll look at mine
And see the nothing that reflects my soul
Empty, broken, missing; you stole
My spirit, the fire in my eyes
It burned so hot, but I didn't set fire
Except with my blade, my only desire
Is to feel, to know if I'm dead yet
Or if I can drink enough to forget
Can I take enough pills to be numb to what I let
Happen? And what about the food I reject?
And the little I eat but then go and vomit?
Or the nights where I sit in the dirt
Crying, replaying the times you hurt me
I get I'm not beautiful, okay?
I get that I'm hideous, every day
I understand I need makeup to cover what I say
I need to stick to my lies
I never cry
I don't need you, I'm fine
I'm fine.

Too Far Away

I'll fall asleep tonight and dream of you
Think of how I loved everything about you
How you made me feel alive
And how I feel now that you've died
But at least you'll always be in my head
And I'll replay every word you said

And I'll see you in my midnight memories
Always calling you with the heart you gave me
I don't even mind that it's not real
I don't care if you don't feel anything, everything
Is possible in my dreams

I put some roses on your imaginary grave
And I stood there and thought about how I wish I could save you
Though you're gone, I'll pretend you'd never leave
Though you left, I can pretend you're as perfect as in my dreams

You're only a dream away
Close enough to love, far enough to feel
Long enough to miss, far enough to heal
You're much too far away

Cry of the Abused

So this is love, mmmm, so this is what I've always dreamed of
So why does it hurt me?
Why does it sting?
As the sound of impact starts resonating
As my face turns red
As you pull away your hand
You've left your mark on me again
And I'm running out of lies again
You can only fall so much
To get injuries as displayed as such
I can't imagine a life without you
So I stay, though I know it won't be any good, get better
Because every word I say turns into a bunch of letters
Every torn T-shirt lying on the floor
Every alcoholic beverage, I've always wanted more
You're nicer when you're drinking
Probably because you're not thinking
And that means I can easily lie
That I love only you forever, and you love only me
And you're done hitting me
Though I know you're not, I like to pretend
That really, all of this is about to end
Is it finished yet, have I bruised enough?
They say I love you, well, too much
That I don't deserve this, but they don't see
How your marks are merely playing with me
This is how you show you love me
I'll suffer through a couple scars
Couple bruises, becase scars
Are nothing in comparison to
Lying with you at night, next to you
Arms around me, you hold me so tightly
Kiss my neck, kiss me lightly
We boasted love for so many years
And I have loved you for a thousand years
And I've been here to fight your fears
But I fear you
I've never been frightened of you
Yet I cringe when you
Raise your hand, I fear when you
Come near, and that scares me even more