The End- Spoken

The End spoken word, by me!
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Will You Ever Know?

It seems no matter what I do, you'll never be satisfied
And no matter what I say, you'll always think I lied
Like it doesn't matter how I paint it, I won't be tall
Enough to cover up the writing on the wall
The words, they burn holes through my shirt
Setting my skin aflame with their truth
Their lies cool the fiery youth
These writings on my wall are true
Yet they're false, because they're words suffocate me
I'm suffocting, can't you see me?
If I'm not good enough after all this time
What makes you worth all of mine?
Why must I imagine you prior to the whiskey
Why do you still have such a hold on me?
I still drink to sleep
When you pop up in my dreams
I inhale the smoke whenever I see
Your picture on your Facebook, all up in my news feed
And I can't delete, becaue then I won't suffer
I guess I want to know I can still feel for
You, unlike you for me
Bit by bit, I'm breaking down
Only to be held up by the fact you knocked me down
And I want to defy you
With everything I am, I want to bind you
To me, to my pain, so you can feel everything
DO YOU FEEL ME NOW?
Do you feel the terror as you move my body
Can you feel the shock as you 'whip it out' and shove it in me?
Will you ever know what you did to me?

It Sucks

I don't care if you're a mistake
You're the only one I'll admit to making
Because I'm enjoyed this messed up
Fucked up, everything that's wrong about us
Because my dad hates you, as he hates me
But that's how we are, and we're violently bleeding
We stab each other with our hearts' broken shards
Drawing out the blood we used to drink
Because we had nothing better do with ourselves besides think
Thinking revenge, thinking paranoia
But it honestly got kind of annoying
This isn't about him, or her, or them
This is about living in the moment
Because I'm sick of thinking of the future
Of college, of marraige, of being a godmom
And I have to hold it all together with a little bit of duct tape
And it sucks
But this, what we have, this keeps me afloat
Because you listen, we talk, and we work it all out
And looking at you just makes my stressed-out self
Shut up and be calm, you make me rest
You're the reason I'm still sane
I've been trying to hard to save something
That's falling apart so hard
That I'd forgotten to look beyond it, into what was really happening
And it sucked.
But you saved me, you save me, you make me happy

Who DAFAQ Do You Think You Are?!

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