I Can't Even Think, Yo

I can scream forever it seems
You still will never hear me
Your ears are sewn shut
While your mouth opens up
To place the blame on me
And everything I pretend to be
I can only do so much, actually
I can run a thousand circles
And still end up here
I can steal a thousand souls
And only want you near
Because I'm so tired of fighting
Always, constantly, a never-ending fight
And I still am the one at fault
But what all have all these souls bought
Nothing's doing me any good
I'm still stuck in this rut of obedient girl
And I miss being free, being the girl who I was
I love you so much, but you're controlling me
Your constant accusations about the cheating
The texts you must read, the calls you must check
The spying you do when I'm not in bed
Honestly, I'm being honest
I haven't seen another man
I have eyes for only you, don't you understand?
I want you, just you, and I'm sorry