So Cold

You're so cold
You're frozen, but you're living
And your heart is still beating
I wonder if you feel me
Underneath your skin
Your lips are turning blue
And they're still cursing,
No one can hear you
You're so cold

Your face is tuning icy
Just like the soul you claim to have
Your fingers can't even hit me
Turning into fists, they'll break in half
You're so cold, so cold

You're heartless, like you always are
Yet you say I have your heart
I'm tired of making up the lies
That tomorrow's different, you'll realize
The difference between me and her, you never knew
You're so cold, love..So cold

You blood's been slowing
Your heart rate keeps decreasing
You're dying, love, slowly
As you lay dying, I tire of crying
I'm so tired of this
So tired of the cold
You're so cold

You Make Me

You make me..

Smile when you look my way

Lean into every word you say

Wanna stare inside your eyes

Be ensnared inside your mind

I wanna just curl into your arms

And stay there for forever

You make me..

Wanna stay the night with you

Laugh at everything you do

It's so crazy, how you make me

Want to be everything to you

You make me

I just want to stay trapped in this time

Where I can fall in love with every rhyme

And watch you breathe, you're close to me

And I love every moment you're with me

You make me...

Happy, lovely, I'm going crazy

Falling, hardly even caring

Wanting, needing every feeling

Seeing, believing every meaning

I just want to touch you

I just wanna love you, love

You make me..

Melt, I'm burning, it's not hurting

Go insane when you say my name,

I'm falling for you, craving for you

And I'd do anything for you

You make me

I just want to stay trapped in this time

Where I can fall in love with every rhyme

And watch you breathe, you're close to me

And I love every moment you're with me

Stay with me, in this moment

It'll be forever, you know it's meant

To be when all you think about is being

With your love, I love you,

You know I'm for you

Stay with me, in this time,

I can't take it, can't take my time

I'm slowly fading, need your hand

To hold me to the earth

Another Absent Father

When I imagined you, I pictured a king

Kept from his family by an evil witching

I imagined you fighting to keep me

Brandishing your sword to fight the enemy

I thought you'd be remorseful for making us believe

You didn't want us, we were nothing

But then again, I never believed in fairy tale stories

I remember when we met, I always took your side

I thought the best of you, but you have a black mind

The only logical explanation for you

Was that I wasn't good enough, which is true

Will I ever be good enough?
Will we ever be enough for you to love?

When you left us, I was a baby

I grew up thinking it was my fault, you made me

Feel guilty for something I had no say in

And I mean, I'm just saying

How I felt as you never wrote, never called

Never thought anything of it, you watched me fall

You watched us suffer, through all of the pain

And you said nothing to stop what we became

Your children have been broken, whether you know it or not

I, for one, have witnessed enough

You leaving made me feel I was unworthy

No matter what I did, no one could love me

You didn't even leave a picture to remember you by
I have no evidence of you holding me while I cried

Did you cry when I wanted to die?
Did you feel any pain as we grew up without you?
Did you feel anything?

I don't know where you've been all these years

When you should have been there to wipe our tears

When we had our first heartbreaks and had no threats

When we fell through the floors and had no one to protect us

I don't know how you could cope

Knowing you were killing all of our hope

In our father, our sperm donor, our dad

And my imaginary you is the best you I had

Because he fought for us, he loved us, and he actually cares

But I can fight for myself, you see, because you were never there

I can fend for myself, get what I need,

I know I'm not enough for you, and I never will be

Go back to being perfect, beautiful, in my head

Because right here, right now, the real you is dead.

In The Eye Of The Beholder

What is a dream if only the brain

Reliving the beauty of the previous day?
And nightmares are twisted words that were said
Or images burned into the back of your head
But the mind plays tricks, beauty is around
It surrounds you
It embraces the ugly, swallows it up
So all that's left is more beauty to love
Beauty is the beggar on the side of the street
Imploring you to help, just give one penny
His pain, though troubling, is one in the same
As the resentment you feel on a judgement day
Because no one will admit to having an opinion
That offends another, they want to play innocent
Purity gets you into Heaven, so they have to be clean
They have to remain spotless to see the gold city
And so you watch as they blame all their sins on you
As you stand there and take it, like they want you to do
And you'll end up in Hell, but at least they are content
Because that's all you ever wanted, you'll take the hit
You'll let them walk on you because you're too frightened to see
You'll never get anywhere with friends like these
But it's been so long, and you can't turn away
Even on such a harsh judgement day
And beauty is in the bones of the dying
Beauty is found in the screams of the crying
The girls who are starving, trying to resemble the dead
Are the ones who are strong, no matter what's said
They respond to society, no matter the subtlety
And they purge and they resist and they just want beauty
Beauty's in the girls who defend their curves
And say it's healthier than dying at the eighty-first
Dial on the weight, they hate the pressure to be thin
But they're beautiful, both on the outside and in
And beauty's in the scars
On me and my friends' arms
Because they'll never leave our sight
Always reminding us of fights
We came out on top of, though you'd call it losing
But we can't all be picking and choosing
But we came out breathing, which for us, was hard
Because we came out alive, through the dark
Through a dark we thought would never end
But it did, with a cost, and we're still on the mend
But that's okay, because we're beauty, defined
Just as porcelain doll with a smudge inside
And beauty's between the hatred of men
Because of the clever words that are said
Though hurtful, they create a harmonious song
And it'll sing for a while, in the midst of the birds' songs
Singing in the air, for they're beauty too
Nature is beauty at its fullest, but so are you
Your anger is beauty, as well a your pain
And so are the disastrous choices you've made
But so is the love I feel in your arms
As we sleep, intertwined, chasing stars
In my mind, infested with hearts
I don't even care if we're miles apart
Because beauty's you, beauty's true, beauty's everything I see
And beauty's right here, right now, looking back at me

Breaking the Law

I'm not trying to hate on you,
Never meant to disrespect you
Never wanted to hurt you, dude
But when did love mean the same as hate?
And when did hate mean you appreciate me?
Because I always imagined appreciation as love
And now it's an endless circle, turning into the wind
Winding down into oblivion
And I want it all to end, but how do you end something
No one knows has started?
And you, of all people out there in the universe
Should know every lyric to every verse
That I write is the real me
The real Brie
And Brie's just a name, it's abbreviated
A nickname, if you will, it's fun to say
I'm not dissing who I am, or who you think you are
I'm defending my right to embrace my scars
Because scars made me realize the truth
No matter who you fight, the real battle is you
Accepting the pain is better than wallowing
Shutting up and swallowing everything
Or following a bunch of blind fools
Who don't know where they're walking
Do you know where your feet step?
Do you understand where your shoes tread?
This is dangerous water, where you think it's land
And you're getting involved in something you can't understand
Because you've never walked in my size eight shoes
And you can't pretend you could ever know who
I am, what I want, or even my history
Because you can't see through my eyes, you know nothing
And you were never there during the blindness
You didn't see me through my sickness
Where were you in my happiness?
You know me from history, and that's just that
History is everything in the forgotten past
It makes you who you are, no matter how you suppress
And I'm proud of who I am, you can't be my oppressor
Your words can't bring me down today
Or yesterday, tomorrow, nothing you say
You think the truth hurts, you got that right
Go look in the mirror and relive that fight
Tell me if you still feel righteous
After pulling the trigger on an immediate crisis
Tell me, do you still want to live your life
Knowing you could have helped me die?
I'm not looking for pity, or I'd attack you
I'd make you see the real problem--you
I'm merely pointing out your faults
In starting a war against my own flaws
I'm not any more perfect than you,
That's true
But I embrace my imperfections, I make them brand new
I turn them into beauty, unlike you
Next time you want to play a childish game
Think about who's the child, who's receiving blame?
I've got my shit straight, now why's yours in a curve?
Figure it out, then send me a message, in appropriate words.