Letter From Hayden

Hey Mom, I see you standing there
I see the wind gently blowing your hair
You're looking for me, off in the distance
And I know what you're thinking, in this instant
Well, I want you to know we're doing just fine
Jesus plays with us, and he tells us of times
When you cried because I came to Heaven
And Gypsy followed me, I know you didn't send us
I want you to know I love you too
I read every letter you write, every video too
I hear you singing to the skies at night
And I want you to know we listen every time
We're the stars that come out when your heart's hurting
We're trying to comfort you, and I know you heard me
When I whispered 'I miss you' in your dream
And you know, Gypsy sounds like you when she sings
She's singing to you, can you hear the soft ringing?
I see you standing on the edge of that cliff
Hoping you're not planning on entering the abyss
Because then I can't see you, can't feel your presence
And that's all I want, is to just know you're essence
I want to know you, love you
We're just calling to say we miss you

Mama, I've Decided That I'm Gonna Die In May

Mama, I've decided that I'm gonna die in May
That way, when you bury me, the skies won't be gray
And the sun will shine when it comes time
To set me in my sleep, my soul will see death's harsh beauty
Lying in my grave

I know my death won't be a surprise
To all who've lived and all who've died
Their bodies rest in cold-hearted stone
Their faces crinkled in Father Time
So cruelly twisted to maintain life
And all the tales within all the lies

Mama, you'll see me lying there
Green eyes closed, red flaming hair
But Mama, don't you dare start to cry
Because I'm still here, and I'm just fine

Mam, please remember all the things you forgot to say
Like, "Baby girl, you look so beautiful today"
Don't forget to live your life
And come visit me sometimes
But remember, they all need you, so you gotta stay

Tell me you'll look up in the sky
And pretend the stars are alive
And miracles come true in nursery rhymes
But love exists, remember this, and kiss my face goodbye

I've Loved You All Along

I've followed you with open arms
Embraced your heartbreaks with a breaking heart
Staying strong for your sake
When all I want to do is break

Just let me shatter on the ground
So I can figure what pieces need to be found

I've loved you
And I've carried you home
So many times, I don't even know
I've held you
Gripped your hand when you needed me to
I've been your shoulder, my turn's over
Hold me now

I've let you sit in my arms
As we balance on the cliff, I fall without you
I've sacrificed my life for you
When all I want to do is run away from you

Just let me drop, let me shatter on the ground
Let me go so I can get away, you know

I've loved you
And I've carried you home
So many times, I don't even know
I've held you
Gripped yoru hand when you needed me to
I've been your shoulder, my turn's over
Hold me now

I've given you everything
I let you have all of me, every part of me
I've been your anything
I want you to see this honesty

Ranting Time!!!

My personal rant about a girl named 'Rosie' :)

Heaven

Hey baby, I know you're watching me
And I just wanted to say I love you, see
You have a new baby brother or sister, and he's
Coming to Heaven soon, and I need
You to watch over him or her because I can't
I wish I could be your everything, but I know
You're keeping a scope on me and Daddy
And even though this baby isn't the same as you
I want you to treat them like you do
Because you have the same Mommy, and that makes you blood
You have to love each other well, because I'm not up
There, as much as I want to be
Now, I want you to stand where you are and see
Him or her when she or he comes through those gates
I want you to welcome your new baby sibling into Heaven