Real Eyes Realize Real Lies

You made me realize that my eyes were fake
Because all I ever saw with you were mistakes I never made
You always cornered me
Like tearing off a butterfly wing
You'd tell me what my nightmares meant
That I'm just another thing to regret
And I believed you, because I wanted it to be true
I wanted to somehow make us perfect, and I knew it wasn't you
You wouldn't sacrifice your prideful shame
And I still have messages that read your name
Calling me a whore, and saying I lied
That I never loved you, I never cried
I always laid awake, alone at night
Not drowning in blood, but craving a fight
Not soaking my pillows in angry tears
Just another girl who can't look in mirrors
Because she's too fat to realize she's thin
And she's to busy covering the gashes on her skin
To notice she's pathetic, she can't fit in
Because no one wants to love a terrible friend
But now I know the truth: you know how I feel
Because now, tonight, I know my eyes are real

Tory's Song :)

Can you tell me how we got here, or atleast how I can leave?

Because you made me feel so worth it, then you took everything from me. 

And now I'm stuck here crying my self to sleep

I'm numb from all the feelings 

I keep going over and over inside of my head

And I keep thinkin back on the things that you said.

You said I was so innocent, wearing my heart on my sleeve

And you told me I was beautiful and I foolishly believed

You said I was the want you want and that you'd never leave

But you said that with your fingers crossed, didn't you baby?

I remember when we'd lay down, the way you'd hold my hand

You'd whisper that you love me and that you understand

That I'm not ready to give you all my heart

Because that little girl inside doesn't wanna fall apart

Now I'm on the couch where we would laugh and fall asleep

And I can't help but think to myself

Would it'd be enough to drop it all and just give up on love

And move on to forgetting about us?

Clockwork

The walls start to fall all around me
And I start feeling my heart pounding
My world used to be so small, so obscure
But I'm still the same, still insecure
Still waiting for my hero to come running to save me
And carry me away on his big, white steed
I remember when I was still a girl and believed in hope
And thought I lived like I was a showman
Letting someone pull the strings
And control the things
I couldn't bear to see
I closed my eyes and wished for peace
And was reminded of the world's clockwork before I went to sleep
I'd lay in bed and pray to God
Asking him for the love I was without.

Dear World

Dear World,
This is my final say
I never wanted to ask for help,
but would you have listened anyway?
You never were a kind one to love
And I'm starting to wonder if I wasn't enough
You always liked to watch me fall
Watch me crawl along the ground
Waiting for me to get up
Just to watch me fall back down
And you'd stand there laughing at the broken bones
The feet that were bleeding from the broken home
You never really asked if I would be okay
And you kinda liked to shove it in my face
That I'm not a model, not running on beauty
I've got my pen in my hand and my brain in my head
But I also have eyes to see that you just want to injure me
I'm the newborn fawn the hunters try to catch
If only because it's bait for a trap
And I'm the child being abused
And everyone can see the yellowing bruise
But you never looked deep enough to see
What I always wanted you to watch me be
You like to tear me down
Like I'm one of your math problems that you can't figure out
But I'm like an open book
If only you'd look
I have hidden no secrets, nothing to blame
I have nothing to hide, but you're not the same
You closed up your wounds with warrior-like screams
You killed my spirit, used its sinews for your seams
And I don't know why you refuse to try
But you can't seem to get past the scars on my body
The cuts I can see
The bones still protruding
Cliques keep on feuding
Capulets versus Montagues, all-out war
And whoever wins the battle only gets scarred
Because, little world, you only want pain
And because you're insecure, you need to gain
Your self-confidence by ruining mine
But guess what?! Idiot, I waited for my time
And I'm not with a blade sitting alone
And I'm not running arrows with a marker along my bones
I'm not drinking my rum hidden away
And I'm not smoking the drugs you took today
So, little world, what will you do
When the Karma is flipped and this happens to you?