It Sucks

I don't care if you're a mistake
You're the only one I'll admit to making
Because I'm enjoyed this messed up
Fucked up, everything that's wrong about us
Because my dad hates you, as he hates me
But that's how we are, and we're violently bleeding
We stab each other with our hearts' broken shards
Drawing out the blood we used to drink
Because we had nothing better do with ourselves besides think
Thinking revenge, thinking paranoia
But it honestly got kind of annoying
This isn't about him, or her, or them
This is about living in the moment
Because I'm sick of thinking of the future
Of college, of marraige, of being a godmom
And I have to hold it all together with a little bit of duct tape
And it sucks
But this, what we have, this keeps me afloat
Because you listen, we talk, and we work it all out
And looking at you just makes my stressed-out self
Shut up and be calm, you make me rest
You're the reason I'm still sane
I've been trying to hard to save something
That's falling apart so hard
That I'd forgotten to look beyond it, into what was really happening
And it sucked.
But you saved me, you save me, you make me happy