Cry of the Abused

So this is love, mmmm, so this is what I've always dreamed of
So why does it hurt me?
Why does it sting?
As the sound of impact starts resonating
As my face turns red
As you pull away your hand
You've left your mark on me again
And I'm running out of lies again
You can only fall so much
To get injuries as displayed as such
I can't imagine a life without you
So I stay, though I know it won't be any good, get better
Because every word I say turns into a bunch of letters
Every torn T-shirt lying on the floor
Every alcoholic beverage, I've always wanted more
You're nicer when you're drinking
Probably because you're not thinking
And that means I can easily lie
That I love only you forever, and you love only me
And you're done hitting me
Though I know you're not, I like to pretend
That really, all of this is about to end
Is it finished yet, have I bruised enough?
They say I love you, well, too much
That I don't deserve this, but they don't see
How your marks are merely playing with me
This is how you show you love me
I'll suffer through a couple scars
Couple bruises, becase scars
Are nothing in comparison to
Lying with you at night, next to you
Arms around me, you hold me so tightly
Kiss my neck, kiss me lightly
We boasted love for so many years
And I have loved you for a thousand years
And I've been here to fight your fears
But I fear you
I've never been frightened of you
Yet I cringe when you
Raise your hand, I fear when you
Come near, and that scares me even more