Tomorrow, Today

I've always been afraid of heights
And like Snow White, poison apple bites
But mostly I'm afraid of falling
As I descend, you wont hear me calling
I'll just keep going faster and faster
And then, when at last I land
I'll sit there crying, alone again
Because you're above me, staring down
Looking at me underwater, watching me drown
And you'll stay there, dry, on dry ground
But you'll leave me there shivering in the water
Broken, like after the man who shot her
Shot my dreams as if you knew
What they were to start with, you
Have no say in what I do
And all I see is only a few
Of your thoughts, muddied up too
Many times, invisible mind
Frankly, I'm sick of saying I don't mind
As if this piece of life I have is mine
When you took everything away from me, every time
Along with every lyric, every rhyme
Every single word, every fine line
Like the one I'm walking on
The one I'm falling from
The one I can't erase
And I just want to stop this race
Want you to turn your face
And see me. Do you see me?
Do you hear me calling your name?
Because I'm just so sick of all these games
I'm so tired of playing
Quit playing me
I'm afraid of memories
Always dread remembering
The past is the past, inside of me
Kept down hidden deep within me
Where, pray tell, is your history?
Kept in a jar, in the dirt?
Hidden along with the faces you've hurt?
Perhaps you may feel no regret
Yet, in fact, some of us cannot forget
Try as we might
We lose our own fight
Though your true self has been brought into the light
Into our sight
But we remain blind
As we lead each other into fires
As we tear ourselves down, only to get higher
And higher, and higher still
But I'm falling again
Wear a mask again
Wear a persona, call it whatever
But I'll wear it forever and ever
Just like the rest of you
Seeing through you
But I can't see
My own enemy
She's falling into her own grave
As my entire being tries to save
Her, us, one and the same
Sacrifice tomorrow instead of today