To My Grandma:

It can't end this way
There's still so much more to say
And I'm not ready to say goodbye
Can we go back in time
And rewind our lives
Because I can't stand to let it die
And I want to go back to you and I

I didn't get my chance
To say all I needed to
And I wasted so much
Didn't give enough to you
Always thought you'd stay
And be the constant in my life
I didn't think I'd see the day
When I'd see through my own lie

You always said you'd be there
When I was just a girl
You pointed to my heart through the air
And said this will be my home

You promised me
That you'd never leave
That the world will change but you would always be
Why has it taken so long for me to see?

Can't Say Goodbye

I never thought that I would be addicted
Never felt your love to me so strong
Promised myself I'd stay away from you
But my feet wouldn't let me make it wrong

Because this can't be right
I'm supposed to fight
This feeling that I feel in me
And I can't turn away
No matter what I say
I always come right back and see
That we weren't meant to be

I always said that I could not fall for you
I always said that you would be alone
Because if you are sin and I am still a child
Then I should run away I know

I was always free
Until you entrapped me
And entangled me inside your heart
And now I can't get out
Though I scream and shout
But I still can't stand to be apart
Now how do I escape this feeling inside?
Because you know just as well as I
That I can't say goodbye

Former Love

You're the reason the sky turns gray
And I hate to watch you walk away
Flowers bloom when you come near
Your passion chased away my fears

Now I want your love to be mine
But now I know we're out of time

I love it when you call my name
And say the things you used to say
I know you have another me
But what is she supposed to be? Because

Now I want your love to be mine
And now I know we're out of time

We were supposed to last to the end
But now I'm just an ex-girlfriend
You say you'll never for get us
Or how we used to be in love, but

Now I know we never were
And now I know what I want for sure

Prince

I will not fall the way you fell into my arms
I will not call the wolf's cry, sound the alarm
I will stand tall, and face the pain you pushed so far away
And watch you crawl away from the dark night

Do you still believe in the hope we'd see
When we'd watch them make our enemies flee
And stand there like children, on our knees
Shiver the cold away, wait for another day
For Prince to save our dreams again

You still won't leave the tower haunting me in my dreams
It's like a refuge that you can't seem to escape
I got away, by sheer force and determination
But you cower there like the shy little princess
When will you know the grass cannot be greener
When all that's in front of you is a wall made of stone

Run away into the wood jumping high above the walls
Toward a secret lover's nest surrounded by waterfalls
Run this way, I'm waiting for you
To take back what's ours so we make a new world
Our world

The world outside is so beautiful
And here you can be just as beautiful as we were
With the children laughing in the streets, dancing
Because they know the chains they escaped
The chains you cling to for life
Singing of princes coming to save
A life that was never theirs to save

It was yours

I Followed Blindly

They asked me to go to war
And fight the Darkness with just my sword
And though to myself I always swore
To never fight the war over-shores
I followed blindly


My mother said it would end me
And turn me into my own Enemy
But the promises lulled my doubting
Mine eyes were searching across the sea--and so
I followed blindly


Riding the majestic waves in gale
And letting myself drown in hail
Beating the drum with my fist made of shale
Growing cold from the rain, turning me pale--but
I followed blindly

And when the warriors gathered wretchedly
And spake of treason and perfidy
I stood there listening with charity
Hearing their every word with abnormal clarity--and
I followed blindly


When the arrows were notched and the spears were heaved
Against our comrades who went to extremes
To defend their hatred, lust, and greed
And felled the strongest ones to grief--but
I followed blindly


And when the light became red with gore
I swore I had seen what I came for
But when my insides felt so torn
I knew my legend had just been born--and so
I followed blindly


Now I sit here waiting still
For the warriors of long ago
As we’ll renew our ancient deal
They will be flung to the pits of Hell
And I will follow blindly.