Drowning

Biting my lip, I look in your eyes

You see the fire in them die

You know you can't do this to me

Yet you have to, don't I see?

This is the only road left to take

The only decision you can make

To keep us together, if only as friends

You promise this won't be the end

But I can see you're lying

Desperately trying to keep me from crying

But you're too good at honesty

Too bad, I guess, for me

You'll always love me, but not just yet

There's a few goals, you say, you haven't met

So you leave

I watch you walk away in tears

Hoping you'll come back here

After you disappear from sight

I walk towards my ending plight

Towards the water's breaking waves

Towards my only known fate

I take a breath

The storm's due today, I thought

As I prepared to drop

To the depths of the dark sea

Will he wonder what became of me?

When they pull my body from the water's edge,

Will he drop on his knees and beg

For me to come back to life?

Or will he just accept I died?

When they perform their autopsy

Will they see the marks on me?

The scars, the bites, the open wounds

Will they wonder why I left so soon?

Maybe they'll think it was an accident

Once the water fills my lungs

I cling to life, I want to hold on

The salt makes it hard to see

Oh God! Please don't let me leave!

As the world gets black and dark

I say sorry to the people I hurt

To the man walking away

On the sidewalk just today

To the friend who never saw

The pain in my eyes, not at all

I wish you would have noticed..