Somehow, I doubt you can even see me
It's like I'm an image, you just look past me
And I mean, it's not like you seem to care
It's as if I blend in with the surrounding air,
It hurts seeing you smile
When you haven't been around for a while
Because I hate that you're always happy
And I'm still here waiting for happiness
But I'm glad that you're in love
Because love's what makes the world go 'round
But I'm sad I was never enough
To make you wanna stay around
Did I really bore you that quickly?
This whole thing is just sickening
Who does that to someone who trusts you so much?
When did I need to write boundaries in the dust?
We became One, melded together, til you broke us apart
And it kills me to think you got to keep my heart
Why did you get the unbroken side?
I'm still lying here, shattered, confined
To my lonesome, my scattered, torn thoughts
Because they broke with me, that day you shot
Me down, ripped me off like a band-aid
But the cut never healed, it just craved
I crave you always, even when I'm not alone
Remembering your messages on my phone
You said you'd stay, here, forever
Always, you said, we'll stay together
We're best friends, you said, I wouldn't leave
Well you did, and you took my soul away from me
And I want it back, dammit
I want it all back, can't you understand it?
If I can't have you, you don't deserve me
Just let me leave with a shred of humanity
Return my life to me, give me my integrity
Let me live with decency
Though you stole my innocence from me
Let me return to normalcy
At least let me pretend to be
Okay with what I did, while you live guilt-free
Continuing on to be continuously happy
While I'm chained here, set me loose, please
Because I've held your hand when you were afraid
And I wiped away every tear you ever made
I fought away demons, kept them at bay
And I've done so much for you, but still you stay?
Still your ghost remains?
Leave me be
Let me be in my own company
Solitude would be heaven compared to this hell
Because I'd rather be alone with myself
Than here with your memory
It's killing me, baby..
It's like I'm an image, you just look past me
And I mean, it's not like you seem to care
It's as if I blend in with the surrounding air,
It hurts seeing you smile
When you haven't been around for a while
Because I hate that you're always happy
And I'm still here waiting for happiness
But I'm glad that you're in love
Because love's what makes the world go 'round
But I'm sad I was never enough
To make you wanna stay around
Did I really bore you that quickly?
This whole thing is just sickening
Who does that to someone who trusts you so much?
When did I need to write boundaries in the dust?
We became One, melded together, til you broke us apart
And it kills me to think you got to keep my heart
Why did you get the unbroken side?
I'm still lying here, shattered, confined
To my lonesome, my scattered, torn thoughts
Because they broke with me, that day you shot
Me down, ripped me off like a band-aid
But the cut never healed, it just craved
I crave you always, even when I'm not alone
Remembering your messages on my phone
You said you'd stay, here, forever
Always, you said, we'll stay together
We're best friends, you said, I wouldn't leave
Well you did, and you took my soul away from me
And I want it back, dammit
I want it all back, can't you understand it?
If I can't have you, you don't deserve me
Just let me leave with a shred of humanity
Return my life to me, give me my integrity
Let me live with decency
Though you stole my innocence from me
Let me return to normalcy
At least let me pretend to be
Okay with what I did, while you live guilt-free
Continuing on to be continuously happy
While I'm chained here, set me loose, please
Because I've held your hand when you were afraid
And I wiped away every tear you ever made
I fought away demons, kept them at bay
And I've done so much for you, but still you stay?
Still your ghost remains?
Leave me be
Let me be in my own company
Solitude would be heaven compared to this hell
Because I'd rather be alone with myself
Than here with your memory
It's killing me, baby..
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