I Remember You

"You're either a sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare
Either way, I don't wanna wake up from you.."
You woke me up,
Struck me a deal,
Let's be friends, when we were more
I cared for you then, not any more
I enjoyed my slumber,
Where there was no number
No countdown to explosion
Expulsion, you expelled me from you
From the life I'd always wanted to be a part of
I wanted to believe in love, thought you were love
Could have sworn I'd deal with a few more blows
For the sake of seeing you smile again
Then that night, it ruined us
It ruined me, in all reality
I can't sleep some nights because I flash back
Flashbacks haunt me like you do
Reliving that 'incident'
That 'accident'
Every time I accidentally close my eyes
I want to claw my eyes out,
Just shut out the memory
You have no idea what you did to me, do you?
I don't expect you to, not asking you to even care
I'm just telling you my side of the story
See, I let you cross a boundary, willingly
Because I was crazy for you, see what I mean?
Wipe that angry glare off your face, love
I should have kept my guard up,
He fell asleep
I can't sleep
I'm turning into an insomniac
I'm becoming a maniac
My mind is always under attack
Pictures burning, searing through
The runes I'd made to block you
I've watched you leave, I turned away
Because there was nothing more I could say to keep you here
You would have left eventually, say what you will
It's true, you know
You were planning to stay on the other side
Of the fine line you were walking on
Balancing on
Like playing cards with a cheetah, you cheated
Not just on her, but you cheated me
You cheated me of the friendship
I'd spent my whole life honoring
I kept your picture in my wallet for years
Just to tell stories of our younger years
I've kept your stuffed animals, because you gave them to me
And I've always been too blind to see
This entire time, you weren't using me
You weren't even playing me
You're just sick and twisted
And I still miss it?
I still want you to answer me?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Better yet, what's wrong with you?
I'm trying so hard to do what you told me to
I've kept at it, hoping you'd respond to
My messages, my texts, my offers of friendship
I guess the river flows north for you
While mine still follows gravity, you rebel
Going against the constant flow
Of what we were, what we know
Or knew, so few of us remain
But we remember you
I remember you