Better Than Me

My mind is saying no but my heart is saying yes
And I don't know who to believe, who's just a guess
My body responds to one, but the other turns it off
And I don't seem to react to him the way I should've
I should've stopped this before it happened,
But it's happening again now
I don't want to get hurt again
Even though I always, always
Always
Hurt you, and I hate it
Do you see me?
Do you see how much I hate myself?
Every time you want to cry, I do
And every single cut I make, it's all for you
Every shot of poison I take, it's because of you
Because I hate myself
You deserve better than me
Much, much better than me
I hate hearing how my face was glowing
When I wish you were part of the knowing
It kills to know I think of him when I'm with you
And you deserve much better than me
He says cheating's God's way of saying
You're not destined to be together
But I promised you forever
And I swore on your life
I'd never hurt you, but I lie
I lied, and I cheated, and I broke your heart
But you didn't break mine, because there's nothing to break
If I can treat you this way..
I shouldn't be able to treat you this way...