Dear World the Second

Dear everyone,
I'm sorry I left, but I need to follow him
Or her, I'm not sure which it is
But I'm sitting here, waiting for the end
Because I don't deserve this life after my offense
And I regret everything, every single thing
I'm saying my goodbyes in poetry,
Because I'm too ashamed to be realistic
I guess I'm masochicstic or something
Maybe I'm just sadistic
I don't really know
All I know is I hate myself, and if you knew
I know you would too

Dear James,
I can't begin to explain myself
All I can say is I hate myself
I know you would have been a perfect father
And you would have loved your son or daughter
Hayden is Baby's name, I picked it out for you
Because you always wanted a Hayden
So I chose Hayden James
And I'm sorry I didn't know you to treat you
Didn't even come close to appreciating you
And I'm sorry for that, because I really do love you
I'm sorry

Dear Mommy,
You almost had a grandbaby
And I took that baby away, and I'm sorry
I can't even say it enough
And I'm sorry Daddy left you, and I've always blamed myself
Because maybe if I'd been the boy he wanted
He would have stayed with us
And I'm sorry we had to leave you alone
I know your house is my real home
But I don't deserve it and I'm sorry

Dear friends,
You've always been there for me,
Either as a friend or an enemy
And I wish I could tell you honestly what you mean to me
But I can't, because I'm not exactly sweet or sappy
But I love you all