Waiting

I'm not sure what you're gonna say
Or if you'll even give me the time of day
But when I look back at your history
And how different you are to me
It hurts me, honestly
Am I being superficial? Because I
Can't even tell, I'm so tired
Of knowing you adored her
And half the time, you run for
Your life to get away from me
Did I do something wrong? I can't seem
To grasp what she has that I don't
I mean, come on, just throw me a bone
Is it that I'm too thin, too nice?
You haven't even read this and I'm walking on thin ice
I honestly feel like shit and you can't even see
Because it's like I'm invisible except when you're horny.
And yeah, I know you'll get pissed beyond belief
When you read this, you'll get angry with me
But it sure as hell beats crying because I'm stuck here
Looking at your wall, seeing her everywhere
All those lovey statuses you never write about me
Because I'm your secret whore, I can't be seen
I can't be on Facebook, I can't take pictures
I have to hide when people are over, like a murderer
Hiding from the FBI, what did I do?
Honestly, I'm just waiting for you..