Containment

So we crossed the line again
We fell into the pit of hell and
I can't take this anymore and
I want to walk out the back door
And just be done, to call it quits
But you never let me go
But what about me?

I'm exhausted from all the tears today
My eyes burn, my body hurts
My brain won't quit whispering
And I can't close my ears as much as I want to
Because the fatality is inside

My arm burns every time I touch it
My back hurts every time I sit
I can see your arm where the blood has gathered and
I just want to erase it

I feel like I'm a monster now
As if that cage was needed
Like The Hulk in The Avengers,
My cell is where I sleep and now
I hate it
I'm sleeping on the couch tonight
I'll be lucky to sleep at all actually
My gut is disgusted at me for staying
And I can't seem to make it stop squirming
I can't stop my eyes from burning
I can't keep my body from hurting
And I can't keep myself contained