Let Go

I don't know what you do to me
But you have some sort of hold on me
I can't untangle myself if I wanted to
Not that I do
I'm attached to this chain
But I hold it anyway
Making sure it doesn't let me go
Because, for some reason, I can't let go
Of you, your hair, eyes, your pitiful demise
Every time you make me cry
It's been too long, I've changed so much
Yet I still see you and need to clutch my chest
So I don't reveal my truth
That hey, there's a reason I avoid you
In my mind, I still need you
I don't want to, but I do
And in my head, I still hate you
For everything you did, and everything I said
Every time you fooled me, thinking you were the best
I would get, and all I wanted anyway
But that's not true, now, is it?