Random Nights!

This is what happens when you leave me with a webcam(: welcome to the Saturday nights with Brian and Brie! More to come...eventually!

Only You Can Save Me

I had a few too many drinks tonight
Because now you're all that's on my mind
It's been so hard with you not by side
But I've been so strong, though not alive

I'm driving now, to the place where we
Made our vows, you said to me
I'll never leave, I'll never leave
I'm crying now, it's hard to breathe
I'm fighting how I feel empty
Come to me now, fill me with peace
You're what's missing from this picture of you and me

I took a shot or two, to forget you
Your face follows me through every room
The place where you used to lie
Is empty, desolate, and I
Can see the twilight peeking in
Gleaming off my moon-kissed skin
I need the dark to hide the tears
I needed you to fight my fears

I'm driving now to the place where we
Made our vows, you said to me
I'll never leave, I'll never leave
I'm crying now, it's hard to breathe
I'm fight how I feel empty
Come to me now, fill me with peace
You're what's missing from this picture of you and me

I've had a few too many drinks tonight...
I'm standing here in moonlight...
Wondering if I can sleep
Underwater, like in my dreams...
And only you can save me

Lasting

Wanna know a secret?
If you keep it,
I'll show you some truth
Among the midst of the lies that surround you
They cover the windows like the winter induced fog
And they fill up my lungs with a gut wrenching cough
But I'm in the mood for some writing,
And nothing can stop these fingers from typing
It's about time
I spoke my mind

Let's start with my body,
How I always feel ugly
And you only promote that with the words you say
The way you speak of other girls to my face
How you shove your good looks and flaunt them around
Knowing I'll be overlooked in the black surround
I'm merely a shadow, a silhouette, if you will
I'm faceless, nameless, another splotch of mud on the sill
While you're the beauty queen, the king of the hill
As I wait here on foot, serving your every need
You stand there above me, just feeding on me

Moving on, next topic is my mindset
Versus yours, we got communication problems
When I'm doing what I can to make you happy
And you take it as me being selfish and lazy?
Like, I get that everything's hazy
And things are sketchy, getting worse by the second
As I sit here waiting to move up from second place
In your heart, it kills me, being last
Knowing she'll always be first, and I have to accept that
I hate being alone, too much time to think
And you and her are all I think about, honestly

Finally, let's cut to the chase
I feel like I'll never have an equal chance
Because you already determined how I'm at fault
I ruined everything, as if I don't already blame myself
Like I don't already feel like total shit
When I know everyone blames me for all of this
I've lost everything, I've got nothing left
I've sacrificed everything for the sake of a relationship
I'm not even sure you want to last..

Waiting

I'm not sure what you're gonna say
Or if you'll even give me the time of day
But when I look back at your history
And how different you are to me
It hurts me, honestly
Am I being superficial? Because I
Can't even tell, I'm so tired
Of knowing you adored her
And half the time, you run for
Your life to get away from me
Did I do something wrong? I can't seem
To grasp what she has that I don't
I mean, come on, just throw me a bone
Is it that I'm too thin, too nice?
You haven't even read this and I'm walking on thin ice
I honestly feel like shit and you can't even see
Because it's like I'm invisible except when you're horny.
And yeah, I know you'll get pissed beyond belief
When you read this, you'll get angry with me
But it sure as hell beats crying because I'm stuck here
Looking at your wall, seeing her everywhere
All those lovey statuses you never write about me
Because I'm your secret whore, I can't be seen
I can't be on Facebook, I can't take pictures
I have to hide when people are over, like a murderer
Hiding from the FBI, what did I do?
Honestly, I'm just waiting for you..

The 100 Years' War

You wanna play dirty, let's see how this goes
Keep walking around like everyone knows
You're so innocent and I'm such a hypocrite
When I've tried my hardest to make myself perfect
I mean, let's face it, I've done more here
Than I've ever done in the past, and you can't even hear
Me speak my feelings, can't even think to ask
How I feel when you insult my body
My mind, my intelligence, I'm sorry
When did we stop trying out maturity?
Coulda sworn you'd told me you loved me
Yet I'm still getting blamed for every little thing?
It's not my fault you can't learn balancing
You can hate me all you want, hell, yell at me
Do it again, since that's all you've been doing
I'm not sure if you know what I'm saying,
But you're definition of love is fucked up
It's so messed up to love me one second and scream the next
And for what? Because of my friends?
I'm not defending you when they're speaking truth
You cheated, no trust here, and I do feel used
Not like you listen when I tell you this foolishness
But yeah, I don't like being at fault for every thing I do
I'm sorry I'm not a goddess incarnate, I only imitate perfection
And I suck at it, but hey, at least I can get your attention
True, it's the wrong one, but beggers can't really choose
It's okay, cuz if I get pregnant, I know it'll be from you
Because I haven't cheated, believe it or not
I'm the one who's been faithful, see what I've got?
It's called dignity, I learned my ways, I noticed it was wrong
Now you write on your wall I'm shit? Dude, so wrong
I've treated you like a god, some deity
When you've acted like I'm a skeleton, not worthy for your feet
But who tries to change a love when it's to be unconditional?
And who is so blind that they throw away traditional?
Honestly, you were perfect at the beginning of this shit
But now? You fuckin' terrify me, and I'm sick of it
When you get mad, hell yes I'll shut down
I'd rather not say anything when Hyde is around
Because you act like the father that left me, so angry
Full of rage, because of her, it can't be because of me
I mean, it could, but that's kind of impossible
Because throughout all this, whether you believe it, it's possible
That you haven't gotten over her, you still want her, and I'm nothing
Nothing more than a crutch to use when you need help to walk
Nothing more than a number to dial when you need someone to talk
Or a body to keep your bed warm on these depressing winter nights
You need someone to hold you close when everything falls apart tonight
But my heart, does it have any say in the matter?
You promised me that it would get better
Promise is broken, yet again
But I'm so tired of fighting a battle that's never gonna end