Anorexia Round Four!

Smiling stares make me aware

Of the thunder coming from under

The pants and you hear my fancy

Lies but you don't realize

That I never tell you truth when I can sell

You deceit, and trust me, it's cheap

I never say, but I don't play

By your rules, the fool

I am ruled by my own food

Counting numbers, keep it under

Eighty, sixty, seventy, fifty

When I get to hello, I'll be a nifty fellow

I'll be invisible, and I'll be invincible

Your numbers don't affect my bones

They will chip away like splintering ships

Break me down, let me drown

In the cold, let my body fold

Into layers, do me a favor

Is this melody becoming tragedy?

Because this love has taken hold of

Everything I always strive

To be because I can't see

My bones yet, ready, set

Go, race around the face

Of the earth, and whoever gets first

Gets pain, it's insane

Really, but Ana is a fan of

Making me want the thought

Of Thin, and everything within

Me will vanish until

I'm gone

Awaken

You awaken a side of me
I thought forever asleep
And I can’t seem to stay away
Longing to see your face again

You say you’ll stay
Don’t go away
Hold my hand
I understand
Watch the sky
I see you there
Flying high
I see you there

Your touch makes my knees go weak
I fall into your arms
You hold me close, then our lips meet
And I know where you are

Don’t leave my side, don’t let me go
Keep me alive, spirit float

To Carlee, With Love

Lift the burden, hold it high
Make yourself a sacrifice
Show your secrets, let them see
No matter what you do, you can’t escape from me
Make your statement, put brave face
Try and put me in my place
But turn your face and shut your eyes
Because you’ll never realize

The nightmare you dream
Isn’t what it seems
It sleeps in your head
I know it’s dead

Cry your tears, release the flow
Rid the love, just let it go
Find the blade, make a scar
Just above your pounding heart
Inhale deep, breathe in softly
Feel the temperature, it’s dropping
Ice is freezing, melting stone
But you will never be alone

You fed the monster in your thoughts
Dropping food from the sky
Finding the light that’s black as day
Saying what I’ve been saying

I'm Over You

Ball of fire, run away
Run from your responsibility
Don't look back, close your eyes
Soon you'll be in paradise
Or hell, however you wish to sound
I'll let you be the judge; look around
Tell me how this looks to you
You whose eyes always
See through lies

Watch the walls come up and the tears fall down
As you watch your story hurt me
But you'd never see me
Turn your head and look around
And tell me what this place is to you
Figure out your heart's place
Then call me just to save face
'Cause I can see through your lies too

Look up at the sky; what do you see?
The past is ripping away from me
Stitches tearing
Always swearing
That you'd never leave
But I can see and I can read
I know you're using me

You wanna come home?
Pick up your phone and call
So I can ignore you, like you did me
And watch you crumble into a heap
And I'm just gonna stand and laugh
At all the things you'd say back then

Real Eyes Realize Real Lies

You made me realize that my eyes were fake
Because all I ever saw with you were mistakes I never made
You always cornered me
Like tearing off a butterfly wing
You'd tell me what my nightmares meant
That I'm just another thing to regret
And I believed you, because I wanted it to be true
I wanted to somehow make us perfect, and I knew it wasn't you
You wouldn't sacrifice your prideful shame
And I still have messages that read your name
Calling me a whore, and saying I lied
That I never loved you, I never cried
I always laid awake, alone at night
Not drowning in blood, but craving a fight
Not soaking my pillows in angry tears
Just another girl who can't look in mirrors
Because she's too fat to realize she's thin
And she's to busy covering the gashes on her skin
To notice she's pathetic, she can't fit in
Because no one wants to love a terrible friend
But now I know the truth: you know how I feel
Because now, tonight, I know my eyes are real