Remember Me

Please remember me

Remember all I've done for you

All the times I've coddled you

Worshiped you, bowed to you

Remember the times I had with you

Because I do

I remember the happiness, the inspiration

The dates, the plans, and dedication

The disloyalty, deceit, and pent-up anger

The forgiveness I still feel even though I'm a stranger

I don't know who I am

Don't even ask about you

But this isn't what I pictured

What I imagined

I thought we'd be married

Have three beautiful children

With college degrees and a home of our own

Not a miserable life where I feel so alone

I feel attacked, I feel isolated

I feel like you couldn't care less if I made it

It's like you've cut off emotional contact

Unless it's you that needs me

And I hate it

I shouldn't be hating me life

Feeling like the last few years have ruined me

I don't want to resent this life

Beause I chose it

But I'm so unhappy

Nothing I do is good enough

You find the smallest thing to fight over

You make me wanna run and hide

In a stupid, fuckiing corner

Can't leave, can't stay,

Can't even control my own body

Can't have an opinion unless you like it

And I know this will cause an argument

And I hate it

I've thought long and hard, and I've reached a conclusion

You're not what's keeping me alive

You're not what's motivaing me to be better

You're not promoting me, not comforting me

And I need better

I need you to be better